Thursday, July 24, 2014

Body Talk: Loving yourself no matter what

If you follow me on instagram (how many times have a led a post with that?) then you'll notice that I occasionally post some type of "progress picture" or "gym selfie" in which less of my body is covered than not. Not because I love showing off or talking about my body, because that part actually gives me heart palpitations, and not the good kind. But I do like to talk about loving myself, and not in a big headed, egotistical kind of way, but the soul-fulfilling, confidence-boosting, heart-warming kind of way. 

Because don't they say, If you don't love yourself, then no one else can either? Or something like that.

Loving ourselves is something that doesn't come easy. In fact, I think it's one of the hardest things we can do, and it took me a long time to get where I am today. And today I am nowhere near perfect.

When I say I love my body, it doesn't always mean I'm happy with it. I think people think that when they "love themselves" that they are settling for what they already have. I think people assume that when you work out or want to lose weight or become healthier, it means we can't love our body - because we're trying to change it. I completely disagree with this notion.

I feel that we can love our body before, during, and after changing it. I feel that we should actually love our body no matter what, not because of how it looks, but because of what it can do. I wrote earlier this year about going on a diet for my soul. It's been hard work, but I think I've finally arrived at a place of contentedness. I wrote the following:
We sit here day after day and beat ourselves up and compare ourselves to others, always thinking we could do better. Look better. Be better. But in reality, we need to focus on the ways that we are already beautiful. Instead of focusing on ways we can improve, lets focus on the things we have already mastered. 
I really have tried over the past few months to focus on the good instead of the bad, and to feed my soul the things it needs for happiness. Loving myself is hard. It doesn't mean I'm always happy, or that I don't strive to be better, it means that no matter what, at the end of the day I can still look at my body, know that I have worked hard for it and I can still love it.

Those pictures were taken only a few days apart, yet they look significantly different from each other. But you know what, I love both of those bodies. I love the one on the left: the bloated from good food, fish catching, bare footed, hasn't-showered-dirty-haired and ready to take a nap body. I love the one on the right: the lean, clean, swimming and running machine, fresh out of the shower and ready to take on the day body. Though they are different, they are the same. Though they have different stories to tell, the ending remains unified: they are both mine, they are both healthy, and they are both something I've worked hard for.

In what ways do you love yourself and your body?

Mr. Thomas & Me

Treating myself with Treasure Tromp!

Monday, July 21, 2014

My Day in GIFs

This is how a normal day usually goes for me:

0500 - My alarm goes off like:

0540 - 0700 - I go be fierce at the gym

0700-0800 Get ready for work:

0830-1700 - #workflow

And lunch break is like:

When my relief finally shows up:


On my way home:

1730-2100 No pants time

2130 - Bedtime

I'm a little ashamed to admit that it took me 2+ hours to make this post because GIFS duh. So distracting.


Friday, July 18, 2014

Five Favorites!

I had every intention of writing a recipe post for the Buffalo Cheddar Chicken Mac & Cheese I made earlier this week, but my computer is having some technical difficulties and I can't get my pictures on my post. And you need pictures, obviously.

So today you get to hear about some (about five) of my favorite things.

1. If you don't follow me on instagram (you should be) then you may not know, but I kind of like working out. I may sound like a crazy person but it really is one of my favorite things.

It's really easy to get burned out so I try to mix it up every now and then with strength training, crossfit-style workouts, yoga, running, and swimming.

2. My most favorite snack is peanut butter and granny smith apples. Also donuts. It's a close tie between the two and I was actually lucky enough to have both of them this morning.

3. I have really been enjoying reading the Matt Walsh blog recently. Warning: he is a very conservative, Christian writer. But his blog posts are amazing, he is so good with words and his topics are definitely what you would call hot. So if you're in to reading about controversial topics, definitely check him out.

4. Weekends spent with family. Which is exactly what I'll be doing as soon as I get off work today!

5. Girls nights. Because no matter how much you love your significant other, everyone needs some good ole girl time every now and then.

Last night me and two other awesome ladies went to sushi and a paint party and had an absolute blast. Even if it was 10 pm (that's pretty late for me) before I got home and even if I got paint on one of my favorite dresses, I would do it all over again.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014


Vodka and Soda

I don't even know what to do with myself, blogging for the third day in a row (even though the past two days I was using prompts) I'm pretty proud of myself.

I confess...

...I kinda feel weird about posting gym/workout related selfies on instagram, like I feel that people are judging me. But then I also think "I really don't give a shit" and I post anyway. Some people probably think that I'm just doing it for attention, and in a way, I am. I mean, isn't everyone that posts anything on instagram just looking for some likes and cool comments? If you say you're not then you're a lying liar that lies. So what if people get annoyed by it because...

...I can't stand when people make up their own hashtags and they're the only one to use them (i.e. for their child, dog, etc). It doesn't bother me when people do it for weddings because that's basically what a hashtag is for... to be able to see what other people are posting with the same tag. But whatever.

...I got some REALLY FREAKING AWESOME news at work yesterday except I'm not allowed to talk about it because nothing is "official" yet and I'm supposed to keep everything "confidential" until it is such. So really this isn't a confession, more of a tease, but I'm freaking bursting at the seams here.

...I keep thinking Derek is going to propose literally any second... and then he doesn't. I really am trying hard not to be annoying about it but when you say certain things and drop certain hints, it kind of gets a girl's heart strings all twisted and hopeful.

...Sometimes I ignore phone calls from friends that I know are going to talk a long time on the phone when I'm  having a lazy day at home. Even if it's been a long time since we talked and even if I do want to talk to them. If I'm laying on the couch watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban for the eight hundredth time, you can bet you'll get forwarded to voicemail. Sorry, not sorry.

...I really (really really) want a kitten. So bad I can almost taste it. But then I remember that I have a cat (and dog) that are currently living with my mom and I feel guilty because it would be like replacing them. But I really really want a sweet baby kitty.

...I am counting the minutes until Friday afternoon when I get to go visit my parents and my Aunt/Uncle who are in town and I haven't seen in over a year! This will be the first time Derek meets them and I can honestly say I'm really looking forward to it.

Got any confessions? Link up with Kath, from Vodka and Soda!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Dear Computer

Today's prompt for Blog Every Day in July is to "Write a letter to an inanimate object."

Dear Office Computer,

How do I hate thee? Let me count the ways.

Although you are useful in some ways, you still have Internet Explorer as your default browser, and though I may change it to Chrome every time I use you, you find it amusing to reset the preferences every morning when I sit down. On top of this little issue, you choose to use as your homepage; completely ignoring the fact that 99.9% of the time I open a web browser, it's to use Google.

While most people can overlook these indiscretions, I cannot. Because they aren't even the real issue. I guess you could call them the metaphorical cherries on top because my real issue is, WHY DON'T YOU HAVE SOUND CAPABILITIES?? Don't you understand that sitting in an office, miles from my other coworkers with minimal people interaction for eight hours a day calls for a little bit of Pandora lovin? Oh wait, I can't use Pandora thanks to the internet blocks.

Why don't I just use my phone, you ask? Well, computer, though my phone is definitely waaaayyy beyond your ancient technological capabilities, it hasn't mastered the concept of picking up wifi through concrete walls. That's right. Not only is this humongous office (with amazing window lighting) stuck way up in a corner of the facility, it is walled with concrete blocks and therefore unable to get the wifi that the rest of the building gets to use.

Even though you aren't the best at helping me with the things that I want (things that would probably lead to a more productive and enjoyable work environment) you DO help me out with the things that I need. And I guess that's the important part, right? Here's to hoping this beautiful window view becomes mine permanently.

Love always, Kalyn

Is there anything about your office at work that you'd change?